Soon...soon

I thought that by this time this year, I would have found out what I wanted to do with my life. I guess I haven't. I went to university thinking that I'd figure it out. Sooner or later at least but I just don't know what I want. I don't particularly like Business but my major seems to be that at the moment.

As a kid, I wanted to be an artist but I always drew so many marine mammals that I soon developed a liking for becoming a Marine Biologist. That stuck with me for quite some time until we started learning Biology in school. Then, I wanted to be a doctor (who didn't?). But that would take about my whole life and I became restless, so I decided to be something else but I just didn't know what.

So now, I'm pretty much at nowhere. At least as a kid, I had a rough idea of something but now I just don't have anything. I seem so comfortable at my life right now that I just don't have the urge to think about my future. If 2012 is right, I don't have to think about the future at all. Haha.

Soon...

Soon...

So what happened?

What always happens...

Life

And here it goes

A few people have asked me what my new year resolutions were for 2010. I really did not have any. I don't exactly believe in them. But I gues there's a first for everything. There may be a few things I want to do before I kick the bucket but let's hope that I'll live a long, and happy life, okay?

So, by the end of 2010,

1. I'd have worked for the Winter Olympics.
2. I hope to save enough to go home
3. And also to travel to Australia to see some friends in Melbourne and Sydney(maybe)
4. Get a "good enough" DSLR camera that I can bring around with me =)
5. Get even better grades to hopefully get a scholarship
6. I'd want to start baking again
7. Hiked up Grouse Mountain maybe once a week once the summer begins
8. Travelled down to Seattle =)
9. Moved in with my brother since he's coming soon!
10. Lost the weight I gained from eating all the good food from home (only to gain it all again when I go home again)

I do have more crazy ones but I guess I have to wait and see whether I can do all that...

Ta.

The Fear

I think that's what holds us back.
Having a conscience that tells you right from wrong.
What if we screwed that conscience and decided that from now on, I'll do what I like.
What kind of world would we live in, eh?
Probably the kind that doesn't care but, there's no stopping us then now is there?

I do have one fear though.
Sometimes I wonder what if I sleep now and never get up?
What if I get hit by a bus?
What if I slip on ice and crash into some killer rose bushes.
Okay, strike that last one off.
The fact that we cannot know when it could happen...
Being totally helpless...


Where would I be then?

Coincidence, that's all it ever is.

not fate

Sweet disposition

I just came back a few hours ago from the Vancouver International Airport and I felt relieved to finally put my 2 feet on the ground after hours and hours of non-stop flights but right now, I'm missing home again. I feel like I didn't even go for a holiday...

School is in a couple of hours and I wonder how I'm going to pay attention when my head is elsewhere. I ate for 2 or maybe even 3 people when I was there. I was stuffed. And I dread going to the gym tomorrow. I need to go grovery shopping too. The sun goes down so early here now.

Hmm... Reality bites hard, doesn't it?

Good night, today.

Good day, tomorrow.

Keep moving. That's what we do.