When things seemed simpler...

Dear all,

I admit that life is about challenges and that without them, life would be meaningless. But there comes a point where we would have wanted it to stay that way. Mostly because we know how it's all going to turn out in the end. Because you know how it's going to end. Or if you didn't want it to end that way, you would have known what to do. That's exactly when life bites you in the ass and proves that there ain't no free lunch. or simple life. Bottom line... You're on your own...

I was going through some pictures in facebook... I really miss some people. If I didn't include you in them then I probably don't have your picture.. Sorry....

Let's start from the beginning shall we?

This is like the 1st picture that I ever uploaded to the net. I'm serious.... I was like 13 I think. You may think "Oh well, that wasn't THAT long ago. I mean youre not even 20 yet." But if you really think about it. It's been almost 6 years. I had braces and was probably a LOT shorter.Haha. Life was simpler then. Make a comment about this pic. I really wanna hear what you guys have to say... How different is the Sybil @19 to the Sybil @13?
Let's skip a few years and see the dork-ness shine.... Hehehe.. This woman is so funny and so horny. Yes, she may wear a tudung but she is one horny girl. HAHAHA. I miss you too Nad....This was in Form 4 I think.... Haha.. These people surprised me with a birthday cake and a guitar for my 16th birthday. ZOmg... I will not forget the day when Nad asked me what I wanted for my birthday and I was like "I want a guitar". I had no clue she was being serious. I think about 20 people chipped in to buy that guitar. I love my guitar. Thank you so much again for planning it all. I know that my birthday always falls when school was over but you guys managed to surprise me in school. I still have that card. It was beautiful.

And then on the day PCD was performing... we decided to be all "beach" since it was at Sunway Lagoon. Thorn among the roses. Which guy wouldn't want to be in Shiresh's place? You are one lucky fella... and don't you forget it...

Life is never complete without Patrick the Starfish. Hehehehee.... This picture was wayyyyy before everyone dyed, straightened, permed, shaved - basically before we were out of school... I am the only person that has not done anything to her hair... yet... Hehehe....I miss wearing short skirts... Haha..Irene is probably rolling her eyes right now...

Then came... Lit night... It was the most look-forward-to day I think for being a Form 5 Assuntarian... You dress up all traditional... At least the Form 5s usually did that since it was our last year... It was my first time wearing a sari. Kasturi got me all the pretty bangles and Irene's granmother tied the sari for me.

My dear Syira and Manda... It was always an adventure with them. I hope to see you girls soon. I miss you. Don't forget me.

The Peronggengs... Hehehe... I cannot forget the 7 of us. We caused so much of havoc in school. At least Nad and Illya made sure of that. Hahaha... I love you guys. Always will.

Not forgetting the Blacks. and Mr. Sexxayyy... and Sarat. This was at Hanny's farewell. This was just a few months back but it seemed like so long ago. We all went our separate ways. One's in London, the other in Melbourne and I'm all the way here in Canada. The Blacks are well... still paying homage to Malaysia where the food is always great. Hahaha..

This is just a random pic where everyone is just having fun with one another...

If you look properly, the chicas in this pic are posing how men should be posing and the guy is posing like how Lala muis would...Hehehehe.. No offense Ashwin.. Happy 19th Birthday!!! I hope you had one heck of a day. I know it's impossible without me but hey... Try your best =D

Of course my dear Wingy... It's been so long since we talked much. I was really close with her in college. She was always there for me. We both had one thing in common then: we didn't study much but always seemed to do alright in the end which was a good thing for us. I like this picture. And no, I don't think you took this picture... Hehehe...
Last but not least is my mother. I was scrolling through the pictures and I saw this. It is so funny how things have changed. You say so many things to me but somehow I feel there's something that you want to say that you haven't. I hope one day things will be better. I hope you know that I'm not gone forever.


Love always,

Sybil

Blooood

I went to donate blood the other day. But it turns out that I have "tiny veins". Which compared to the needle is effing HUGE. If you've donated blood before, then you see what I mean. But, the size of the needle was not bothering me. My blood stopped flowing after a while. And it was a little pain when she put the needle in. And she sort of fidgetted around with it to see if the blood would flow better another way. Hmm... Anyway, 2 days later...

I get this. It doesn't look so bad but it hurt like a bitch the next day. It was like I jammed myself with a needle without thinking about the consequences or something. Hah! It's getting better. Not much pain. My ankle now is giving me hell. I can't walk fast or long. I start to limp. Is it me or does my time here just end me up in having really miserable days. I try to do a good thing but end up not getting to do so. Then I try to enjoy myself with friends to watch Twilight (which was a pretty good movie though I think they just made Edward so dead and back to my point...) I end up feeling this irritating pain at the back of my left ankle. Like WHat the hell right? Pfft. Anyway... I'll write about my "Bald Eagle-End-Up-Salmon-Watching-Day-Out soon.

By the way.. go to youtube and search for "BLOOD" and you'll see this little boy's face. Watch that video. It is soooo cute. If I knew how to upload it here, I would but I have no clue how to do it so... bear with me...

Toodles

Silver lining

In the midst of this grey season, a day of sunshine just brightened up my day. (= It was like a summer's day in a gloomy autumn season. I so cannot wait for this semester to be over. Life in university may be the best of our lives but when youre actually living it, you just want to get out. Very selfish of us don't you think? But I'd say my best time in my life was when I was in Form 3. I know I had PMR and shit but daymnn... I'd go back to being a 15 year old any day. I still had 2 years in secondary school. Abso-fcking-lutely nothing to worry about. All you had to do was pass the exams and... FREEDOM. It was short lived but at least it still felt like we had freedom. Everything was like a dream then when you compare it with now. But as the saying goes, Shit Happens. Am I right or am I right?

It was an interesting November the 13th. I had like the most intense work out today with a friend. I'm not kidding. 2 reps of this and you sweat like a pig. Haha. I'm not kidding on that either. And right after, I joined the BLaH gang for Trail mix around the mountain. Hiking at school? Imagine trying to do that in Kuala Lumpur? Hahahaha... I think crossing the road is enough of a challenge. Zebra crossings are just for show in Malaysia. Hahaha... It makes me laugh everytime I cross a zebra crossing.. Like "The cars ACTUALLY stop for me~!" Silly but true.

Ooh ooooh.... Did I mention this before? I don't know and I don't care: I can tie my hair up in a really short pony tail now! I really can't wait for my hair to grow to at least about my chest. which unfortunately woud take maybe a year or more seeing that my hair just loves to curl at the bottom so it takes effing long for it to grow to the length that I want. Pfft....

Midterms finally ended for me today. I admit that studies just isn't my thing anymore. I used to enjoy it but I don't anymore. Not until I hate it. But, it's just not the same anymore. Not that I'm failing or anything. I'd say I'm average? Anyway, yeah. It's different and I don't like dealing with shit when I already have to adapt to a place I wasn't looking forward to going. Bottomline: I want to go home. Anyone want to sponsor me? I'd be eternally grateful. (=

Lingering. But hope is what keeps you going, no?

Fright Night @ Playland

Yes, I am alive, people. Trying to keep as warm as ever. I would exchange climates with you any day Weena... And as promised, pictures from Fright Night! Woot...



From a little further off, you can see the Ferris Wheel...

And this is the front door to Fright Night@Playland. Giving you the jitters yet?

Okay, maybe you can't really see this but this is the ticket to enter. And since we were in a huge group, we get a group rate of $15 rather than $21 I think since it was a weekday. We went to Fright Night on the 30th of October, the day before Halloween. =)

This is just a fun swing ride. Good for drying your hair after the rain =P

And from far off, this is how the ride is going to be like.

We didn't really take a ride on the Ferris Wheel. Too many rides, too little time.
While waiting in line for a ride, we came across "DIE Dine Diner" And if you look closely enough, there's a dude's head hung in the middle, an arm on the left. blood everywhere and just some gruesome stuff. Sorry I didn't have a closer shot, I was in line and I couldn't afford to line up again.

Another make-up-do of a Hallowee-nie old folks home.

This is Hell's Gate Ride I think.... You basically get tossed 360 degrees back and front. Really short but that's a good thing if you ate a lot before the ride. Hahaha

Ooh, and not forgetting the devotees of the spirit of Halloween. There were people who dress up like killer clowns, grave diggers, monsters, and bloody people just like the above picture. Pretty awesome, eh?

Hmm... we went on some cool roller coaster rides. One of which is the wooden Coaster. It's like 100 years old I hear. And it's made of wood. Totally bumpy ride that really makes you jump out of your seat. Ooh, we went through a couple haunted houses which were pretty kool too. You never get hanuted houses like these back home. Not even close.

Tomorrow's a holiday due to Remembrance Day: the day the war was ended at the 11th hour of the 11th day of the 11th month. So let us all have a silent moment for those who died during the war..... I'm serious....

Anyway, it's like 5.p.m. now and it's dark as if it's 8p.m. back home. I swear, if I don't wear a watch, I will not know what the time is. So not a good thing... Hahah!

Toodles~

Tell me why...

There is something that bothers me. But I don't know how to place it or word it or phrase it or do anything with it really. I've just come to realise that I can't do anything about it. Even though it bugs me like crazy. I act as if nothing is wrong. But truly' there is something very wrong somewhere or maybe everywhere. Would someone explain to me?

Which would drive you more crazy? To know your leaving for success caused the failure of someone else? Or the coming for a new life was just a dream and nothing else. You make a pick and you tell me why. Because I cannot choose.

I want so much to live as if I had JUST the average student's problems but it doesn't seem to be possible.You know, life is very simple for the average student. All you really do is study and sit for a paper. I was at Fright Night yesterday with a bunch of friends for Halloween. Everyone is out to have a good time and you play along. I laughed a lot and screamed even more. There was no joy in my laughter; at least, I didn't feel it though it was heard as an everyday laugh. But there was all the fear in my screams. I may have thought about it as being just for fun. But you realise a lot of things when you reflect.It's like being in a situation where you just want to run. After running for so long, you reflect and decide to face it. But without realising it, you're still running, and faster than ever.

Tell me why...