dreams...

does it make you wonder at times why you dream certain dreams? i really do..i have been having some weird dreams..some people say that when you think so much about something..you tend to dream about it too.. but then again...not all dreams was what we desired it to be right..it just makes me wonder how our brain functions..

well..anyway..the first day of christmas came and gone..my house was full of people comeing in and out..then at night i went to irene's house..it's always nice to go there..i miss her family..today, however, is all about resting..i've been pigging out so much!...haih...its back to exercising again..hopefully..hahaha...new year's is one week ahead and that means more food too...how like that??..ah, well...it's been a whole year without exercise...so i should go back to my routines...

about christmas eve night..we had our usual gathering at our table to eat christmas dinner...there was roasted lamb, ox tail soup, garlic bread, portobello mushrooms (those were excellent!) , achah (i dont know how you spell that) and some other random food i can't remember now..opening presents was good..i have a new bag, wallet, my old LAMY mechanical pencil that was stolen in college as well as an equally expensive pen to go with...hehehe..i like my stationary...ok..story time another time..

merry christmas..

sleepless nights

i've grown so accustomed to sleeping in the wee hours or the morning and waking up in the late afternoons that i can't sleep at all before 6 or 7 in the morning. so i come here to express my thoughts - the thoughts that i cannot seem to get rid off... i think and think and think until i can't think anymore..well, so much so i can't sleep at least..these thoughts never seem to disappear..there's a part of me that wants to let it all go but there's also another part of me that wants it to be there..forever reminding me of it all...

if someone or some event always bounce around in your mind..what do you do with it? it only brings back memories - memories you don't want to cloud your mind..but then why do you think back about it?..these secrets are not meant to be shared..so what do you do?..you end up thinking even more about it..do i hate these carousel of unwanted memories, desires, temptations?..no, not really..its a lot like a love-hate relationship..i guess it's a reminder of being human..like saying you want the truth but never really wanting it..you want YOUR desires to come true..but like what it is - there are mere imaginations of our minds..fantasies...and we all know where that ends..reality never lets you have that happy ending only fairy tales end with...so what do you do?... you live...

aurora by lapush

On your side, yeah its real big
Holding on to everything you give
You say my name when you want to its just fine
Keep me here forever in this flight

On your side teach me the real thing
No time to think of the old scene
You say my name...
Im still here forever in your arms

Write your name in the stars
I am trying to heal your heart

On your side lets talk about everything
Got no time for words that youve already heard
You say my name when you want to you just leave when you want to
Were still here and were still alive

Write your name in the stars
I am trying to heal your heart
Write your name in the stars
I am trying to heal your heart
Write your name...

(When all you need is someone who is listening)
Youve got soul you already know...

stop and stare

i went to college today. just to see MR.FRANK about my options when i go to CANADA. coincidentally, the SAM people got back their results so it seemed like a good excuse to meet up with them. WING & HANNY did great as per usual. LOOK WHO'S TALKING?.. joh came for lunch too. girlfriend was there too. he seems to brighten up all our days because he is such a joker. he ate like 2 meals for lunch when he was with us that is - apparently it's the "gearing up" for our YUEN all-you-can-eat meet up with the rest of the "ALWAYS HUNGRY" people which includes wing, hanny, the BLACKS, joh and some other rANDom people i can't really think of now. =)

after lunch, wing, joh, and me went to MID VALLEY to watch a movie. i insisted on watching I AM LEGEND. such a STUPID movie. it's like another remake of RESIDENT EVIL. the only difference is that the infected people could actually think. they weren't really dead. so NOT worth our money or anyone else's.

on another note, HEROES volume 2 is OVER but volume 3 is only starting but the damn writer's strike in LOS ANGELES is causing havoc for us - the ever attentive pirates that download these series to pass our time. all other series have come to a standstill: PRISON BREAK, gossip girl, moonLIGHT and it just goes on...

WING- my JEALOUS boyFRIEND, my mother, the david beckham fanatic, the eating machine... and HANNY - the unexpected, quiet one - bought me the top i liked from clothesbucket..so SWEET right??..hahaha..well..I kinda guessed it when hanny didnt bring it. she just said she has my present..anyway, this is what the top looks like. and i know how much it costs!HAHAH!..

stop and stare...well, i've been listening to that song by OneRepublic over and over and over again...as well as Aurora by LAPUSH...those songs are so good...

just a random thought here but why do guys like to get to know girls through smsing...it drains our credit and were the nicer sex so we always reply ...but seriously..why do guys start their so-called flirtatious stuff through sms-ing???call us and be done with it. it saves us our credit and our time!

lights out for me now...

happy to be in my shoes

HONOURS is given to RONALD LIM aka "girlfriend".. he qoutes
"aiseh i dunno why but early in the morning keeps me thinking..haha..lotsa things wandering in my head..haha.."

what he said made me realise too that we all just love to wonder..what if this..what if that...well...needless to say i daydream a lot..and i mean A LOT!!!you see right..anytime anywhere..i just STONE..i just think of anything that comes through my mind..and EVERYONE knows i love to STONE...i dont know why but i just do..

anyway..i just met up with jerry, umith, arvindh, alex..and the whole lot of the bangol jamz..its been wayyyyyyyy too long since i last seen them..i've always been blowing them off..so this time i actually went ALL THE WAY to SS3 mamak just to see them..and they were grateful..hahaha..i was talking to jerry about every damn thing you could think of..SEX..girls..boys..stupidest things we ever done in my life...EVERYTHING..but it was fun..no denying that..it was of course another random decision to go see them..it was also very random that before i went to see them..i picked up my guitar and started playing it again..it's been like what..a year? since i last played MY BABY..damn!..i was playing linger by THE CRANBERRIES..oh.. i love that song..

so i come back at about 5 in the morning..i buy Mc D's BIG BREAKFAST which was NOT big at all for my bro, damien..i come online..and i am chatting with the one and only "girlfriend"..it's been so fun hasn't it, girlfriend?..anyway..im stopping here for this morning...quite enough of blogging in just... 8 hours?...

toodles..

my first post

So...as the title above says...this is my first post as well as blog which i dont know what i really want to write here..i was just so bored...i guess i shall explain why i chose my link as justsofuckingrandom...hmm...first reason being that all other "random" names were UNAVAILABLE..so i got pissed and wrote from justsorandom which was also unavailable too justsofucking random..haha..well..that did the trick and this is what it got saved as..no way around it now..anyway..i do love myself for being random..i never had just a certain click of friends..i hang out with everybody..i can just sit anywhere and read my book like how i do so in shopping malls..when i get tired of walking around i just sit and read..i can sit and talk to some random stranger...or sometimes i just walk out the door and take a bus to kl just to sightsee and take pictures of kl's beauty as well as flaws..food is always good here...im gonna miss it when i go over to canada..which is only in 7 months..gosh!..time really flies...but i can't wait for christmas!woohooo!!presents and the smiles on everyone's faces makes everything feel so perfect..

going over to canada sounds so fun..its a new environment..there are more cultures to learn about..i can meet new people..i can get out of malaysia's ever rising corruption...but then at the same time i have this ache in my heart...im gonna miss my family..my friends who will still be here..most of them are going overseas too though..but still this is where we grew up..we grew up together..weve been through it all...and now were just being the chicks that flew over the cuckoo's nest...maybe that is what life is about...GROWING UP..not so much physically..because age is not a factor..it is only a number...you learn every day, every hour, every minute, every second...well..not really ever second but im sure you smart people get what i am trying to say..

i am currently reading Jodi Picoult's The Pact..it was pretty draggy at first maybe because i have been so busy so i was never actually into it..but it's getting better now...as sarat said it will..according to her...it was BRILLIANT! with a capital B...haha..i hope it is...

well..i think this first post of mine is good enough for now...till next time..